Anything Worth Having (and other random thoughts)

I know what it's like to be lonely when you're not alone.

Sometimes, things have to really get worse before they get better.

I think a crucial step was missed out on by not living on my own.

I think at 28, I've finally accepted who I am...and I don't feel bad about it.

I wonder if sometimes my expectations are simply too high and I'm living in a dream world. But then I remember that God wouldn't allow me to dream it if it weren't possible. My God is most capable.

Today in church I learned that sometimes, a response or comment from me is not needed and that it's okay to sometimes just remain quiet.

If I had the power to solve all of my problems, would I want to?

I write when it's in my best interest to not to be vocal.

It's so hard being the bigger person, when everyone once in a while, you want to let the "old" you come out.

When you've both said hurtful things, you apologize but the other person doesn't, do you then regret your apology? Ever wish you could take it back? Does that then mean your apology wasn't genuine in the first place? Does it just mean you've grown more and did the right thing?

It's hard taking the brunt of your loved one's growing pains. I have to pray for strength b/c this is bigger than me and if I try to do this "my" way, it'll hurt much more.

Two imperfect people trying to become one.

People claim that they "live each day like it's their last" but, do we really follow this? What I find so sad is that a lot of times, the people who have lost a loved one, are the very ones who take their "living" relationships/friendships for granted. You better wake up and realize that tomorrow is not promised. If you did something wrong, don't wait until the next day to apologize. If you love someone, don't wait until the next day to tell them. If you need to change something about yourself, don't wait until the next day to let that change be seen. What if you don't wake up? What if that loved one doesn't wake up? Then how will you feel. I don't mean to sound so morbid but, life is short...that's real. It frustrates me to no end when I see people thinking they have another day to get it right. It's even more of a struggle when I'm trying to "practice what I preach", I'm trying to say enough with the petty ish, but when that loved one doesn't seem to get it, you start to think it's pointless and futile. It's the constant struggle between taking the higher road or the lower road.

Up and down....good days and bad days... It's all so very draining. Every day, we wake up and make a choice. We choose how we're going to live through the day. Every waking moment of our lives, we determine how we let the actions affect us. This is not to say that bad times won't come. But, we don't have to let the bad vibes spill over into and over power our souls, our relationships, our spirit. Take advantage of being able to make the choice while you still can. It would be so unfortunate if you purposefully chose to stay down, thinking you could get it right tomorrow, only to find out that opportunity isn't an option.

Be careful not to stay down too long. You run the risk of ending up alone when you do finally decide to resuscitate your life.