Random Thoughts 2/21/08

I am so bored right now. It doesn't make any sense. I guess that's a sign that I need to write something. Only thing is, I have a bunch of random thoughts in my head right now. This is going to be all over the place...

I am so unorganized and out of it right now. Stuff is everywhere in the bedroom. I need to buy a new hamper, since DH destroyed the other one. I also need a new storage bin to hold some of my personal items (hair, make-up, etc.). I honestly need an entire day off just to clean up and get organized. I have items that need to make their way to the cleaners, and others that need to see the garbage! I am in need of a complete wardrobe overhaul. It's taken me 27, almost 28 yrs to realize that I dress so homely. I need to ditch all of these long skirts that I have (or at least get them cut and hemmed into shorter skirts). I hope DH is prepared for some weekly shopping excursions!

There are some strange people on my side of the office. Some of them speak to me, some of them don't. It's weird. One guy, I swear he's racist. Everytime I walk by him he's quick to look down or away. And I noticed that his pace increases too. I mean really? What does he think I'm going to do? I dunno. Maybe he feels like I don't belong here. Who knows. I keep saying one of these days I'm going to say something to him in a loud voice. Let's see if he responds then! And you know, it's not just him. The majority of people on this floor do not speak to me. It's a very "cold" environment. Totally not my style. And for the ones that do speak, it's barely above a whisper, like they're afraid to even be seen speaking to someone not in their "circle". Strangeness indeed.

Yesterday, it was so cold in this office. It was only in the high 30s outside and I swear it was warmer out there! I had to put my laptop on my lap, just to stay warm. Today I came prepared. I'm wearing my Under Armour cold gear pants underneath my skirt! Yeah I'm warm but this definitely isn't a "fabulous" look!

And speaking of fabulousness, is it possible to "develop" a sense of fabulousness or is one just simply born that way? I feel like I have little to no sense of style and that is something I truly want to change. But, I want to be able to change it on my own (and not have to bug my friends all of the time for help).

I've been having the hardest time getting into a routine of working out (and liking it). In the past, it's usually taken a few weeks before I'm in that "zone". I was doing fine last week...working out 3 days in a row. Then, all of a sudden, it stopped. I don't know what happened. And now, it feels even harder to start back up. I did finally turn in the form to get access to the gym here at the office. Once I have access, I'm going to try to at least get down there for 30 min a day. I really want to start running again. However, I don't want to run in the cold, and I don't want to wait until it warms up to start getting in shape. Today, when I get home, I'm also going to pay to use the rec center that's 2 min from the house. There is hardly any room to get anything done at home so this is the next best thing. We'll be moving in a few months so I'm just going to pay for 3 months. $55 for 3 months is pretty good, considering I just need space to jump rope and maybe use an elliptical.

And why is that whenever I even start thinking about working out and getting in shape, I start craving all kinds of bad food? Like right now, I want some Chinese food!

Well, I've managed to get through 2 hours here. 6 more to go. It's too cold outside to walk around. I guess I'll preview some new music. Hopefully that will help. If not, I'll be back to jot down more random thoughts.

What's Good For The Evening?

8:35pm on a Thursday night. Sitting here listening to Eric Roberson's Left album, watching Sixteen Candles on mute, with flexi rollers in my hair (I know, real sexy!). I think this is what's missing in my life right now. Just sitting back listening to good music. Speaking of good music, what happened to it? I guess that's a topic for another post.
DH isn't home from work yet. I have this feeling that he's not going to be in a good mood when he comes home. For starters, I know he's in some pain with his neck and back...still stemming from the car accident. Secondly, this is day 2 of working late in pain, so that just adds to it. I'm sure when he comes home he'll just want to go to bed. I sure will be glad when the pain is gone and he can get back to being his happy self.

Ever have one of those nights, where you just want to make a drink and throw on a 90s, black movie? That's how I'm feeling tonight. I feel like experimenting with some butterscotch schnaaps and throwing in Love Jones. I can watch that movie over and over again. That was the very first DVD I ever purchased! It's just something about that movie that I love. Brown Sugar has become a more recent favorite movie. Who knows, maybe I'll watch both tonight. Depends on DH's mood though. Gotta make sure I take care of him first.

I miss my girlfriends. I feel so bad that I don't see them as much as I want. Work is crazy. I feel like I never know what time I'm leaving each evening, which makes it hard to plan anything after work. I need to work on that. Got to make some changes. I think tomorrow I'll call one of my girls and get together for lunch or something. I'm also really bad when it comes to keeping in touch the old fashion way. I've gotten so hooked on email and instant messaging. I use those methods more than phone and in-person visits. I think it's important to pick up the phone more often, instead of turning on the computer and sending an email. With so many friends, it should be easy to call one each day. Hell, I used to stay on the phone when I was a teenager!

Well, let me go ahead and figure out what tonight's drink will be. A buttery nipple is sounding really good right now!